The joy of motherhood is something most women look forward to. For Carrie Underwood, the professional success was amazing, and the family she had already started with Mike was perfect, but when they had difficulties conceiving their next baby, it hit Carrie harder than she anticipated.
In August Carrie announced to her millions of faithful followers on social media that she and her husband, Mike were officially expecting their second child. However, she just revealed in an interview how difficult the road was to get there.
Underwood shares a bit of her perspective on life, taking the good with the bad,
“I’ve had a good life, and you can’t win all the time. You gotta have some downs to realize when you’re up.”
She goes on to tell how the title of her new album, “Cry Pretty,” is very personal for her. Even though she had a bad fall last year where she says, “My face broke my fall,” and she ended needing nearly fifty stitches, it was nothing compared to the emotional pain she was dealing with on a daily basis.
In reference to her album title she begins to unravel it a bit.
“It speaks to a lot of things that have happened in this past year.”
The interviewer asks “What’d you mean by that?”
“Here we go. Oh, lawdy! 2017 just wasn’t how I imagined it,”
“In what way? I’d kind of planned that 2017 was, you know, going to be the year that I work on new music, and I have a baby. We got pregnant early 2017, and didn’t work out.”
“Oh, I’m so sorry.”
“Yeah. It happens. And that was the thing, in the beginning it was like, ‘Okay, God, we know this is, just wasn’t Your timing. And that is all right. We will bounce back and figure our way through it.’ And got pregnant again in the spring, and it didn’t work out.
“Got pregnant again, early 2018. Didn’t work out. So, at that point, it was just kind of like, ‘Okay, like, what’s the deal? What is all of this?’
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“And throughout the whole process, you know, I’m writing and, like, literally right after finding out that I would lose a baby, I’d have a writing session, I’d be like, ‘Let’s go. You know, I can’t just sit around thinking about this. Like, I wanna work, I wanna do this.’
“‘Cause I would literally have these horrible things going on in my life, and then have to go smile and, like, do some interviews or, like, do a photo shoot or something, you know? So it was just kind of, like, therapeutic, I guess.”
Carrie reveals what the dark night of her own soul was like, having been physically and emotionally pummeled by everything in life, she was quickly approaching her limit. And she admits that she got mad at God.
“I had always been afraid to be angry,” Underwood said. “Because we are so blessed. And my son, Isaiah, is the sweetest thing. And he’s the best thing in the world. And I’m like, ‘If we can never have any other kids, that’s okay, because he’s amazing.’ And I have this amazing life. Like, really, what can I complain about? I can’t. I have an incredible husband, incredible friends, an incredible job, an incredible kid. Can I be mad? No.”
“And I got mad.”
Carrie could feel in her body what felt like another miscarriage happening, and she said ‘enough’ to losing another child, and told God how she felt. And something truly miraculous happened.
“Mike was away just for the evening, and I texted him, and I was like, ‘I don’t really want to be alone, so I’m just gonna go snuggle with Isaiah.’ And I don’t know how I didn’t wake him up, but I was just sobbing,” Underwood said. “And I was like, ‘Why on Earth do I keep getting pregnant if I can’t have a kid? Like, what is this? Shut the door. Like, do something. Either shut the door or let me have a kid.'”
“Either shut the door or let me have a kid.”
“And for the first time, I feel like I actually I told God how I felt. And I feel, like, we’re supposed to do that. That was like a Saturday – and the Monday I went to the doctor to, like, confirm, another miscarriage. And they told me everything was great!”
“And I was like, ‘You heard me.’ Not that He hasn’t in the past. But maybe, I don’t know, He heard me.”
Carrie’s story sounds very similar to the story of Hannah in the Bible. Hannah couldn’t have children, and was distraught. One day she went to the temple and laid it all out before God. She wept bitterly, to the point that her lips were moving and no words were audible.
Eli, the priest, saw what was happening, and was about to throw her out because he thought she was drunk.
But Hannah prayed a special prayer that got God’s attention.
1 Samuel 1:14-17
“How long are you going to stay drunk? Put away your wine.”
15 “Not so, my lord,” Hannah replied, “I am a woman who is deeply troubled. I have not been drinking wine or beer; I was pouring out my soul to the Lord. 16 Do not take your servant for a wicked woman; I have been praying here out of my great anguish and grief.”
17 Eli answered, “Go in peace, and may the God of Israel grant you what you have asked of him.”
Carrie got the same answer from God that Hannah did all those thousands of years ago.
“Go in peace, and may the God of Israel grant you what you have asked of him.”
Here’s Carrie’s Baby announcement!
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We’ll get what we want in life and from God if we never give up.